As I’ve been weaving in and out of different cities (to visit and at times, to live in), I’ve realized no one actually knows where I am right now. And I think that’s partly because I’m having trouble figuring out where I want to be. Most of you have joined me when I started this blog in 2009, where I was budding as an editor at Marie Claire. Ten years later, I decided to move to another country. Shortly after, I came back to the States, only this time trading the east coast for the west to make a little home in LA.
After 12 years of being all over the place, I was longing for my center again and came back to my roots in the Midwest. For the last few months, I’ve splitting my time between Chicago and NYC when I need to be there for work (let’s be honest, you can never quite leave New York after so long). The thing is, I’m at an interesting crossroads in my life where I’m looking back at a 12-year career, and keep thinking of when I was most happy.
There were many moments, I’m super proud of. Of the most recent, helping launch TINTED with Deepica. Our little team was tiny but committed to increasing representation within the beauty space. Deeps’ vision has made waves, and I’m lucky to have been asked by her to be part of its conception.
But truly what made me most happy was launching Beauty and the Feast — this lil ol’ blog. For a while, I was thinking why I still have not changed my Instagram name from @beautyndfeast to something like my byline. The truth is, I always felt like this blog was my baby and no matter how late it was at night, I felt excited to come home and just write. BATF started as a routine of writing for me, and I miss that.
I know better than to make any grand promises this time. I would like to pick up where I left off. I’m not sure if YouTube is yet my thing. All I’m saying is I’m looking for where I want to be, and I think that starts by taking the time out to do more of what I love every day.